|my summer .... it passed way too quickly. it freaks me out that we're so busy and i wonder how busy it will be when the kids are actually in real activities, and we are running them around from spot to spot. i look forward to it and dread it all at the same time. as i sat on the porch for a minute this weekend, i wondered why i push myself from one thing to the next. my mind is constantly in TO-DO mode, thinking of what i must do that day, and checking them off as i go. then i thought of my blog, contests, getting Christmas cards ready (seriously, it's time to think about it!!), getting high school rep cards ready, shooting sessions, editing photos, placing orders ... oh, and doing laundry between everything. and i thought to myself "umm .... why in the world am i expecting so much of myself? this is ridiculous." and it is ... !!
i was talking to someone else the other day who is self-employed and he asked how i was doing .... i blurted out my usual : "great ... just tired. and busy, which is great! but i need a vacation!" and it was so nice to hear the simple reply of "it's a lot of work running your own business, isn't it? things that others just don't realize that goes into it." and then we discussed how it is such immense work, but it's also great work. when you are so passionate about something, you want to submerge yourself in it, making sure it's just as you want it. and then when it gets there, you want to make it even better. and the best thing about all of that, is you enjoy doing it, so it doesn't even feel like work ... until the next morning when you just got 4 hours of sleep ....
the whole point of this story : i've made myself feel guilty all summer about not blogging more, not running more contests, not cleaning enough, not pulling weeds. it's silly, really. my most sincere passion lies with holding my camera and offering fantastic photos to clients who are seeing their children in a different light than they have ever seen on paper. but my most important passion, and the primary reason i have become so obsessed with photography, are my kids. jaeda can now ride her bike without training wheels and had her first spelling test and got an A+ .......... harper is pointing out H's all over our house, he notices them in the most obscure places. he has the most contagious laughter ... oh, man ....!! he cackles ... it's not just a laugh, it's a cackle -- a 'little stinker' cackle bellowing from deep within his little belly. these are my most important passions, and i feel so darn lucky to be able to witness as much of it as i have, i can't say that enough. but i'm done making myself feel guilty about not posting more pix or running a contest. it really is silly to expect myself to do one million different things each 7 days. so i may run a contest here and there, but i'm not going to write it on my to-do list. ahhh ... see, a weight has been lifted already!!
the winner from my mini post ........ katy alexander!! (is no one else out there running the mini!?) katy --- email me your address :)
but guess what? i really did get tons done this weekend and i did get a very special contest in place, and it will follow this post. this is one contest that i'm going to try to stick with, because it is super fun!!! gosh, i totally sound like i'm contradicting myself, don't it?! saying i'm over contests, then posting a winner and another contest. hee ... it just took me such a ridiculous time to post this round of the photo contest and the winner from the mini contest that it's mildly embarrassing!!
some sweet summer pix below ............ these boys were a blast, and way too cute :)